So it’s been about a month or so since I’ve posted anything on here. The lung doctor diagnosed me with restrictive lung disease. Which basically means my breathing isn’t going to get much better than it already is (and it’s horrible. I can’t walk a block without being winded and the first comment I get about I’m just out of shape and lazy can look up restrictive lung disease) That’s pretty much the only new development in my life
Lately I have committed myself to my journal. I’m trying to get a handle on my mood swings and the way my mind works. I have cleaned my room and have vowed to keep it clean. It’s time I took some responsibility for myself. So everyday I make a sweep of my room picking up whatever I or one of my pets knocks over. So far so good. I’ve also been working on cutting back on my wardrobe. I’ve been getting everything washed and sorted though. So far so good. No random piles of clothes anywhere. Everything has it’s place now. I need to get some things to help keep organized but that can wait until I get a job. For now my system of old backpacks will have to do.
Well I have to go to Le Bonheur hospital to do a cardio pulmonary stress test Thursday to see why I get out of breath so easily. They think it’s my lungs which really won’t surprise me a bit. Last stress test I took they said my lungs didn’t fill up all the way. Honestly let’s see my heart is actually working right (finally after 19 years) my migraines are under control so obviously my lungs say it’s their turn to see a doctor. We should be able to figure it what the problem is fairly easily after tomorrow. I hope it all goes well and it’s not some big huge ordeal that sends me to another doctor
So I went to a new cardiologist Thursday. (A Le Bonheur affiliate) I switched because I didn’t want to have toys in the waiting room. We get there and boom toys. Only two of the doctors there see adults. I didn’t say anything about it. We went not knowing how long we’d be there. We were there for 3 hours. We weren’t waiting or anything we did a bunch of tests. After two tests and a few X-rays my heart is running like it should.
So I’ve been staying up til at least 1 am the best few nights. The night before last I didn’t sleep at all. I don’t know if it has something to do with the fact that I slept at lot Sunday and Monday. I could because i had a fever Sunday morning. When I get fever I get really exhausted and just sleep it off. So I could be just having to much energy to sleep. Or so my brain thinks. I think it’s worrying my mom. She knows I didn’t sleep the night before last and didn’t go to bed til 1 this morning. That’s so unlike me. Any of my friend and family will tell you that. I don’t know what it is. I don’t stay up late on purpose I just lose track of time watching a show or reading or wiring one of my books. It’s not that hard to do when you get into the book or show. it’s quite easy for me to look up from a book or laptop and see that it’s1 or 2 in the morning. So here lies a question what could make you stay up all hours of the night?
I’ve been playing the newest installment of the Mortal Kombat off and on over the last few weeks. I kinda got obsessed with it even more so than I already was. Ever since that added Freddy Krueger to the game in Komplete Edition. I wanted to see how the game ended for each character that wasn’t from the previous games. (Jason Vorrhees LeatherFace, Alien, Predator) The best way to do that without beating the game is in the Towers. I’ve already been through Jason Scorpion and SubZero. Subzero and Scorpion ended being good guys. Jason ended up killing Lu Kang. So far I am in love with this game but I can’t play it 24/7 or I’ll get to addicted. So I’ve been trying to get through two characters a day. I’m going to finish the horror characters tomorrow. I’m thinking of going to do LeatherFace’s ending later on tonight and I might even do Predator’s afterwards. Not sure yet.
Ii’ve had writing fever lately on my new thriller novel. In the last week Ive written roughly 50 pages. It clear that I’m either going to have a good book that I’ll read multiple times or a book that all my friends will love. Either way I’m very proud of myself. If I keep going like this I’ll have a new book up very soon. I just have to get it edited and ready to put up on amazon. I’ll get a summary of it up sometime in the next few weeks.
I finally got to watch IT Friday night. I love it. I mean it went along with the book pretty well. The only thing I wish that they did differently was ‘beep beep Richie’. It was only said once by Pennywise as a wink to the book. I would have loved for that line to be used by the Losers. It would’ve fit in with everything going on. Really well. I found myself saying it a few times through out the film.It was a jumpscare movie basically. Pennywise popping up when you least expect it. It was full of cussing and foul humor but so was the book. I enjoyed the way it kept inline with the book. I’m wanting to reread the book.
I don’t know why I have a sudden interest in horror. A few years ago I would’ve said you were crazy if you asked me if I liked horror movies. I did have a fascination with Stephen King books though. The last two years horror movies have pulled me in. I’ve always liked creature feature horror movies. But recently I’ve been wanting to watch the most feared movie of my childhood nightmare on elm street.
I always hated Freddy. It got to the point where I freaked out if I heard the song. Now I wanna watch it. I’ve decided to conquer my horror movie fears. Like Freddy, Text chainsaw massacre, amityville horror and a multitude of others. I just wanna absorb every horror movie I can.
The only horror movie franchise I will NEVER watch is Saw. I hate the saw movies. They just trigger this reaction of pain in my bones. it’s sadistic torture for the watcher as well as the characters. those are forbidden. Completely forbidden.
So one of my New Years resolutions was to dye my hair. I figured I’d try it out once. Never again. Never. again. I bought purple hair dye cause I wanted it to stand out. Well the hair dye I bought did not hold well it’s not even been a month and my roots are blonde again. I know what someone’s gonna say ‘you don’t wash it every night when you’ve dyed it” I haven’t been until this week. I’ve decided to wash the color out and get my beautiful blonde hair back. I LOVE my blonde hair. I want to set out and put the ‘dumb blonde’ stereotype to rest. My mom doesn’t like her blonde hair. Heaven knows why. My sister dyes her hair a different color every few months. Right now it’s red for a little while. Not like Weasley red. Like fire engine red. I like it. Shows her personality. Her passion for whatever she decides to to. Hair is not for everyone. It’s certainly not for me. But I guess that’s one reason I love the phrase to each their own.